Wellbutrin 150mg no effect

Well, after 2 weeks of 150mg once a day I noticed basically no effect.  My sex drive seems normal and no new developments in the O department.  Now its time to see if 300mg a day does anything.

Trying wellbutrin

I recently read some articles about the sexual side effects of wellbutrin.  It seems for some it is a wonder drug that increases their libido and gives them powerful orgasms.  So I got up the courage to ask my doctor about this and he agreed it is worth trying.  I am starting at 150mg and if that does not work will try 300mg.  I am hopeful but not holding my breath that it will do Anything for me.

My misconceptions on women and sex - the nice guy syndrome

What goes through your head when you see a trailer for 50 shades of gray?  If you're a woman are you turned on?  If you're a guy are indifferent, maybe a little jealous of gray?  For me as soon I realize what it is I start to feel physically ill.  The more I see and learn about the story the sicker I feel.

It took me sometime to figure out why I have this reaction.  I boil it down to the shocking realization of everything I was taught about women to be wrong.  I was taught growing up to always respect women and treat them as delicate fragile beings that men are suppose to cater to and worship, and for this we will be rewarded with a woman who loves us.  My parents played some part in this but the majority I learned through tv and movies.  Everytime the overly pushy bad boy was rejected and the sweet romantic boy came in to save her this was reinforced.

Learning about 50 shades was certainly not the first time I've had this type of realization.  The first time I heard and came to understand nice guys finish last was crushing.  I'm sure some are thinking oh no not another nice guy sob story.  While this maybe a sob story I'd also like to fully understand this dynamic.  To get to the bottom of it will hopefully help myself and others to understand why and how to be the person you want to be.

My first real experience with this dynamic was with my first girlfriend.  I had been taught my whole life that making an unwanted advance on a woman is a horrible thing and she may reject you forever.  The worst case of this being she accuses you of rape and suddenly you are total scum in the eyes of society, on the same level as a murderer.  A more rational fear is that I am slapped in the face and called a creep to her friends for making an unwanted advance.  Because of this I found it a very nerve racking experience to make any moves.  It was quite the learning experience for me when she broke up with me saying she felt like we were just friends since I never made any moves.  The worst part was hearing that I could have played with her boobs at any time and I missed out.

Since then I have gotten better about reading what a woman wants and when it's the right time to make a move, but it is still a nerve racking experience.  So what does this have to do with feeling ill over 50 shades?  It's that I have been taught completely wrong how to treat women and what they want.  It reminds me that even though woman may tell me how nice I am or how comfortable they are around me what their subconscious is saying is I am pathetic and not a viable mate.  That reminder makes me sick.  So from now on I am making an effort to be less pathetic.  I am no longer going to live trying to please the women around me.  Instead I am going to live for me.  I am going to concentrate on molding myself into the person I want be, not the pathetic one society  tricked me into being